Linking up with Kate Motaung here.
Kate, I’m sorry to cry off, but it’s not going to happen tonight. I know I said I’d join the linkup with some thoughts and words on grief, but I’m shattered, overwhelmed and – it seems – going down with a migraine.
I was all up for it this morning, til… well, something happened, and it all came back. Then today’s been a day of ‘making it through’, being strong again carrying a heavy weight on my heart. Trying to find that light heart and unusual joy I had yesterday.
Maybe the joy’s still there somewhere, but it’s buried deep. Today it’s under a blanket of exhaustion, and bound tight in anger and resentment. I’m just fed up that the sorrow and anxiety is back. It came, again, unexpected and unbidden. Just when we were getting ready to party. Soul-sucking joy-stealer. I hate it, this Grief, and I’m just angry, angry, angry it gatecrashed my Christmas again.
And I’m exhausted.
And need to go to bed, after a bite to eat if I can stomach it.
So… crying off, sort of.
Thanks for inviting me to join you, anyway…